My maternal Grandmother lived on the South side of Milwaukee, two blocks North of Mitchell Street. That meant that she could go shopping every day for that day’s needs. Mitchell Street had every kind of store you could imagine and Busia would never have needed to go elsewhere had her three daughters not insisted on taking her shopping from time to time.
She was a clever and shrewd gal. She arrived in this country after traveling alone (on a ticket sent to her by her older brother) by boat from Poland to Canada and then still alone by train to Windsor Ontario where her brother Lawrence met the train and brought her to Milwaukee.
Before the Great Depression she and my maternal grandfather whom I never met (he having died 2 years before I was born) had acquired three or four duplexes which carried her through the Depression. By “carried her through” I mean that she was able to live in one while collecting rents on the others until the bank foreclosed on the one furthest behind in mortgage payments. When they foreclosed she moved into the one that was then the most in arrears and waited out that foreclosure. It wasn’t a pretty way to survive, but survive she did.
She learned a lot of lessons during the depression, among them was the idea that she had “her price” for everything and if an item wasn’t at “her price” she wasn’t about to purchase it no matter how much she wanted it.
It seems that was a lesson from her that sunk in even though she never sat down and talked to me about it. It was understood by all the family, the three daughters, their husbands, and my one cousin and myself, and anyone else who came along that she would wait for her price.
The other day Peg & I were at the grocery. I intended to make chicken soup in the next few days and I wanted 5 chicken thighs to put in the soup. As I made my way down the protein aisle I first came upon a package of 4 thighs for $1.99 per pound and because it was the right size package and it was within my intended price range I put it in the cart. Four feet down the aisle I found a package of 10 thighs for $1.59 per pound and I stopped for moment. I “needed” 5 pieces. But I could use 5 now, freeze the others and save $0.50 per pound. Guess which ones I bought?
I would say that the two of us are comfortable in our retirement. There are a lot of things that we can afford to do; there are even more that we aren’t interested in doing — they not being our lifestyle; and there are a lot of things that we can’t afford to do. I know without a question that we are comfortable now because we have always been extremely careful about how we spend our money. We are not scrooges. We are quite generous with others but we have always had limits for ourselves that we simply don’t think about exceeding.
When we were young, and when we were both working, there was a period of about 10 years when we wanted all the “best” things — specially when it came to food; to some degree about clothing. We patronized all the top notch restaurants in town at a time when restaurants were still doing real cooking and there weren’t so many portion-control options available. We splurged on meals, even 7 course meals with wonderful wines to see what “this world” had to offer. I bought really good suits for work, and I bought really nice clothing for Peggy. We had some extraordinary experiences.
But it didn’t take much more than those ten years for us to realize that no matter how posh things were they were just things. We didn’t need all the fanciness, in fact the fanciness sometimes…. perhaps often…. got in the way. We really wanted a different life than consumption got us.
To this day I use Gas Buddy to scope out the best gas prices in the area, and if it doesn’t use more gas to buy at a cheaper station than I would save by buying closer at a slightly higher price I’ll go that short distance.
I shop for hotel and travel prices. Friends pick the higher priced fancier places but seeing as I’m only going to use that room for sleeping, I often pick the more reasonably priced one. Not the “cheap” chain. But a choice that gives us the best overall value for the dollar. And if we miss a better bargain than we might have had… so what. It’s not about being cheap, it’s about making the best use we have of the resources available to us.
I didn’t live through the Depression. On some level you’d think that those lessons of frugality, of making due, of re-using and re-purposing should have been lost on me. After all, it’s not like I was forced to do any of them. But, I’m glad they were not. Being careful has given us a fuller and “richer” (in experience) life than we would have had otherwise. And doing what we chose, when we chose — instead of waiting until we were retired, or older, enabled us to enjoy things that today would be beyond our ability. Had we saved our money instead of doing those things 20 or 30 years ago we might have had more money in the bank than we do, but we aren’t physically able to do many of the things we did back then — so what would we have saved?
I am no example of how to live. The choices we have made in our life are very individual and I’m certain not a lot of other people would make the same choices. But I am here to say that the choices we make have a definite effect upon the lives we live. We can make our life better, or we can make our life worse — more difficult, less satisfying, a catastrophe even. It’s not all about price. It might not be about price at all. But never underestimate the impact of your own choices upon the life you live, or the life you want to live.
I swear that there are times my own subconscious is wicked and perverse. It waited until I had written (yesterday) about sharing dreams to share with me a literal dream about a broken dream! Sheesh…. I mean, have a heart!
In the spirit of full disclosure I suppose I ought to share it with you…
In real life 20 years ago I left the ministry when my own theology began to veer off into a direction that my flock weren’t interested in following. And, I was particularly cognizant of an Old Testament verse which cites several things which God hates, among which was this one:
“He who sows discord among brethren.”
In my mind it was pretty clear, if I was the divergent one then I ought to be the one who left instead of hammering away at my congregation and disturbing their faith. The issues were significant, it was never going to be likely that I convince an entire congregation that a fundamental aspect of their faith might be flawed, and so I stood up, made clear the reasons to those who would understand the theology behind the decision and leave.
Around that time I had thought — and it was only a thought — about visiting with folks in the U.K. with whom I had become close in spite of having left the organization. And that germ of an idea lay there for a while, I even thought to myself that I might wait a “couple” years and make the visit then.
Well, a “couple” years stretched into 10 and then nearly into 20. And last night I had this dream that it was “now,” and suddenly that dream was going to become a reality. Someone handed me tickets to make the trip and I sorted out my luggage and started off on the trip — only to wake up in the middle of the night to realize that “Always Ready Peter,” that “Never Say Die Peter” had set off on a trip for which no plans had been made, no one knew I was coming, I didn’t even know if the people I had intended to visit were still alive (more than a couple were older than me — perhaps they had passed already) — it was a right mess.
The dream got even more weird because my phone rang — the one in the dream — and it was my wife and daughter calling to check on me — on an old fashioned flip phone with extendable antenna (if that gives you any idea how dated the dream was).
Suffice it to say, and I’m cutting the narration short because the dream is fading as fast as I keyboard the details, that I was going lickety split in an effort to save the trip. I had moved some business furniture to a friend’s house and they were helping whilst I was overseas attempting to save the routing and still connect with a disparate group of people spread all over the U.K. It was a mess. And in my dream I realized how much of a mess it was and I couldn’t find a way out of it.
One might think that such a dream would raise my real life blood pressure. In fact it did not. I got myself out of bed at 5 a.m., dressed, forgetting to weigh myself, then undressing, weighing myself, and getting dressed again, and then taking my blood pressure. Whew! I’m tuckered out just talking about all that activity so early in the morning.
And to top it all off, it has now been 6 days since we had our new InterWebs installed and our installer had told us that we might be well advised to power off our interface box “once or twice a week” to keep the connection refreshed and I had not done that. My dear wife came to me wondering what was wrong with the InterWebs as she had already been up for a couple hours and “the little thingy was going round in circles” and nothing would connect. So, I unplugged and replugged the box and life returned to normal — another catastrophe avoided! Now I’m even more tired!
There is no end to this story. It’s an anecdote that I shared because I had just written about sharing dreams — and even though the nature of the dreams I was talking about in that post were more about goals and visions of the future, this little dream about something very real and concrete just seemed to real to ignore. Maybe having written it down my brain will think about it and a year from now it will mean something to me. Or maybe one of you, dear readers, will suggest something that will make sense out of it.
All I know is my subconscious can be a sneaky conniving so-and-so. And that’s all for today.
Talk to you tomorrow.
I’m writing this Saturday morning as the local newscasters are hyping the population up for another spring snowstorm. It will be the second storm in April in two weeks. That’s not actually all that unusual for Wisconsin. Of the past 150 years we have had snow during 130 Aprils. Some years we have had as much as 8 inches. Other years under 1 inch.
Peg must have been paying close attention to the weather forecast — but then she’s more of a worrier than I am and she pays closer attention to a variety of things I tend to ignore — but she wanted to make sure we get out to the grocery on Friday to stock up our as-yet-empty-pantry. We haven’t been through a snowfall here at the Park yet. Duh. We haven’t been through much of anything here, yet. And with forecasts for as much as 4″-8″ of snow for Saturday the idea of perhaps getting stuck out here with no food in the house seemed to bother her. I don’t know why?
The good news is that I did my husbandly duty and we went shopping, loaded up the fridge a little, filled up a couple kitchen cabinets with boxed and canned goods, and checked the gauge on our propane tank. We’re set.
Now, let’s see how much snow we get….
It turns out that this storm wasn’t as bad as they forecast. Wisconsin Dells sits at the juncture of four counties — might be the only town in Wisconsin to do that. We (meaning the four county junction of Sauk/Columbia/Juneau/Adams) were on the edge of the storm and what we saw — in addition to 28º temps was a very light and fluffy spring dusting of flakes — followed by a light rain. That meant that the trees and grass took on a lovely white, while the hard surfaces pretty much stayed their true color. The beauty really only lasted about an hour.
One of our neighbors needed their water disconnected in case of frost, so I went next door to take care of that and made these three photos while I was out. 30 minutes later I looked out the window and the snow was pretty well gone!
One can’t be too upset about that kind of storm. At least not if you don’t have to drive in it! Transient, wonderful, rare beauty that disappears in the blink of an eye. There are times when the wonders of nature ( or creation ) reach out and slap you upside the face! I often find myself amazed at the rare beauty that exists for such short moments in this world.
So, later today the temp will rise to 54º and it will be as if this late spring snowstorm never existed — at least here.
I’m talking to you “live from the sleep center.” Well, not exactly “live,” as I’m writing this almost a week before it’s going to post — but you get the idea.
The second time’s the charm. My heart specialist wanted me to have a sleep apnea evaluation 6 months ago. United Healthcare ditzed around with the request, and ditzed around. I followed up with the clinic twice, but still nothing happened and eventually I forgot about it. When I returned to the specialist for my next appointment (last week) they re-wrote the order saying that the sleep study was necessary to put off any need for a surgical procedure — which I don’t know whether that’s actually a fact but suffice it to say in three days we had an approval. It turns out that a prior appointment for today (they called yesterday) cancelled so instead of waiting one to two months for an opening I am sneaking in “under the cover of darkness.”
If you, like me, happen to have hypertophic cardiomyopathy and don’t know it, obstructive sleep apnea is common among HC patients with over 40% of HC patients diagnosed with OSA. You might want to talk with your specialist about it.
I had a sleep study done 10 years ago and never adapted very well to the old fashioned headgear that was available at that time, so I used the gear for 6 months and said the heck with it. Now doc wants me to do this all over and I guess I need to do my best to cooperate if I wanna hang around on this lovely green planet, so we’ll see what happens.
Well, my “keeper” is coming back to finish hooking me up so I better sign off for today.
A few years before my father-in-law passed away he got to the point that he recognized his days were limited and he started a thorough top-to-bottom housecleaning. I mean he was rigorous and almost scary about the way he divested himself of old treasures and even older trash. I have to say, I admired him for it. I wished, at the time, that my dad were was forward thinking as Frank was being — though to tell you the truth I thought he started a little earlier than might have been necessary. But then Frank knew his own state of health better than Peg or I did, and he knew his own mind.
I can’t say that Frank was following any kind of Swedish Death Cleaning concept. His concept was quite simple: straighten up his affairs so that his family didn’t have to do any more than necessary when he passed. He looked at his finances, at his legal documents, at his possessions, and at the people in his life and he took steps to sort out the lot.
I want to share this article about sorting out your clutter for what it might be worth. We in the U.S. have a strange relationship with death, most of us avoid acknowledging it in a great many ways, but it’s something that we would do well to treat more rationally. For ourselves — to insure that what happens after our passing is what we intend; also for others to relieve them of burdens they don’t really need to deal with.
It’s the decluttering method to end all decluttering.
By KATIE HOLDEFEHR October 23, 2017
Move over Marie Kondo, there’s a new decluttering guru in town. Margareta Magnusson, a Swedish woman self-described as “somewhere between 80 and 100,” has recently written a book that may hold the key to the ultimate decluttering secret—one so thorough that it lasts, well, forever. In her book, The Gentle Art of Swedish Death Cleaning, now available to pre-order and set to release in January, Magnusson explores the concept of Swedish death cleaning, or döstädning, the process of organizing, decluttering, and giving away your belongings “when you think the time is coming closer for you to leave the planet.”
At first blush, it sounds morbid, but Magnusson handles this touchy topic with humor, and presents death cleaning as a thoughtful process that ensures family members won’t face the burden of digging through mountains of clothing, books, furniture, and tchotchkes later on. If you’ve ever lost a loved one, only to realize you’ll have to sort through an entire lifetime of belongings while grieving your loss, you’re already well aware of how difficult this process can be. “Many adult children worry about the amount of possessions their parents have amassed through the years,” Magnusson writes. “They know that if their parents don’t take care of their own stuff, they, the children, will have to do it for them.” The book can be used as a conversation starter for children to broach this sensitive topic with their aging parents, and it also serves as a guide for those starting the process themselves.
So, if you’re going to start death cleaning your own home or plan to help your older family members, how do you begin? “Be aware of the fact that to downsize your home will take some time,” Magnusson says. “Old people seem to think that time goes so quickly, but in fact it is we who have become slower. So—do not wait too long…” she advises with a touch of humor. She recommends starting early, around the age of 65, as the process isn’t a race to get rid of your things before you die, but should help you enjoy your life unhindered by belongings you no longer need. “Death cleaning is not about dusting or mopping up; it is about a permanent form of organization that makes your life run more smoothly,” she explains.
Like most decluttering methods, death cleaning is about more than sorting objects—it’s about emotions, too. Going through a lifetime of books, photos, and letters is bound to bring back memories, and while Magnusson suggests going through photos and other emotionally-loaded possessions last so you won’t get sidetracked, sorting through these feelings is an important part of the process.
Despite the emotional aspect of death cleaning, Magnusson insists it isn’t sad. “Death cleaning is also something you can do for yourself, for your own pleasure,” she writes. Before she says goodbye to each object she no longer needs, Magnusson takes a moment to reflect on the memories associated with that table, jacket, or cookbook, whether good or bad. “One’s own pleasure, and the chance to find meaning and memory, is the most important thing,” she writes. And so it turns out, once again, that the difficult process of tidying up has more to do with sparking joy than you might think.
I want to add something else to this.
Our lives have gotten increasingly digitized and I really want to encourage you to declutter your digital life as well. I know that while we are involved with paying bills and planning our finances that passwords and such are in a constant state of flux and it’s hard to think ahead far enough to put such things as passwords in a file your loved ones can find and will know what to do with. But it’s only fair that you do. As much as you care for your loved ones you don’t want them ending up in default on loans or missing bank payments just because you didn’t share a password or a user ID. Take the time when you have it and document what needs doing, what will take care of itself (we all have some auto-pay bills I’m sure).
Be kind to those you love.
On Wednesday we had what we anticipated might be our last cardiologist’s appointment for this trip. All went well, for most of the appointment. The meds are doing their thing and no additional visits were necessary.
The doctor left the exam room and his clinical nurse specialist finished up the paperwork. Then she took us to the scheduler to schedule next year’s appointment. And then came the curve ball.
Let me preface this by saying that I’m a smart guy. I’m used to being the one who is sitting around waiting on people slower than me. I’ve spent my lifetime waiting on other people; and that’s ok.
The nurse came around the corner and half hollered at us for 20 feet away, “Before you leave the doctor wants to talk with you again.” Ok… so we go back to the consult room and wait, and wait, and wait. When he finally arrives he sits at the computer and pounds out an email and then turns to us, saying, he wants me to see another specialist, the leading expert on something he noticed in my recent test and he wants to schedule another procedure.
Bottom line is that we’re here for a while longer. How long — who knows. How serious is the newly important condition? Dunno right now. But it is what it is; I only have one body and I’d best take care of it the best I can.
The reason for commenting is quite simple. My whole life I’ve been the quick one. I have known that being quick has resulted (too often) in my seeming to be rude and impolite. To me — I was just skipping the overture and going straight for the meat of matters — but other people weren’t seeing that. To them I was abrupt, or rude, or I didn’t take their opinions into consideration. That I had considered those options/opinions already, chosen among them and was ready to proceed didn’t seem acceptable to others because they weren’t part of the conversation. But that didn’t change the fac that I had acted upon due consideration.
The doctor that I’ve been seeing this month and a half is one of the few people in my life who behaves towards me the way I have behaved toward others. I see and hear it in everything he does. I won’t say it annoys me — though I know it annoys Peggy. What it has done is give me a better insight in how I come across to other people.
If you want to be understood,
You have to make yourself understandable.
I am committed to a very simple idea: if you want to be understood, you have to make yourself understandable. I’ve been trying, trying, trying, my whole life. That doesn’t mean I can’t be who I am; it means that I am aware of the hurdles I’ve put in the way of being understood and when it’s important for me to be understood it’s up to me to find a way over those hurdles.
It’s not my place to tell my doctor his bedside manor could use some improvement. I’m the patient and I’m coming to him for his expertise. That his expertise might come with some personal quirks goes with the territory. Really smart people all have their quirks.
But what I can do is take a lesson from life and redouble my efforts to make my own communication clear and concise. Perhaps sometimes not quite SO precise. One of my bosses — 30 years ago — taught me the three rules he lived by. He was a Lt. Col. in the military and I’ve never been sure whether they were rules he learned in the Army but they are very simple:
You know — people don’t always like it when you’re specific, and plan ahead, and don’t assume! While we were at the doctors’ office the nurse was processing the renewal prescription for my new meds. The new scrip involves taking 1 1/2 pills at a time, instead of 2, and the length of time we were writing the scrips for was only 60 days instead of my normal 90 day refill cycle. It’s amazing how a little bit of math can throw you when you are accustomed to doing things by habit. It took three tries to get the scrip right. The first one was wrong because of the 1 pill or 1 1/2 pill thing. The second was wrong because of the quantity: 60 times 3 pills per day is 180 pills, not 120 pills. I think nothing of correcting a professional when I know they have not got the thing right. But it’s a reminder that following simple rules is really important: in this case, not assuming that the prescription was written correctly just because the pharmacist handed me a bottle.
So, I’m going forward trying to be a little less rude, and a little less brisk. I know I’ll never stop being who I am, but I can try to be less irritating to others.
Thanks for stopping by, and I’ll talk with you tomorrow. Maybe tomorrow we’ll have yet another wrinkle in our departure plans, or some other doctor to go visit. 🙂 🙂
P.S.: Just in case anyone thinks this doctor doesn’t deserve my trust. The nurse called at the end of business to apologize for the mixup with the scrip, to let me know about their follow-up on two matters related to my visit and to clarify questions I had. They are a bit unorthodox in their way but they are efficient in the life and death things that matter.
A really close friend of mine was a weather-head. He has passed now, but lived his life in Kansas and his weather condition records detailed his life in Ottawa for almost 1/2 a century. I am nothing like him.
I can glance at my smartphone weather app 100 times in the day, see the temp, and then forget it just that quickly. Or (as many RV’ers who concern themselves with the overnight low when the temps are near freezing) I catch the overnight low… and ignore the rest. I’m a very focussed guy; sometimes focus gets in the way of seeing.
This time of year I pay a little more attention to the forecasts than the rest of the year. Spring and Autumn we are usually spent en route from North to South and sudden changes are more likely to affect our travel choices.
- We avoid high winds when possible
- We avoid snow (which is to say driving in snow) and ice whenever possible.
- We concern ourselves with freezing temperatures. If we are connected to a water supply we disconnect and run off our onboard tanks, and we may hook up our heat tape to our water line and / or turn on our water bay heating.
- In Spring we try to follow the warm up, in Autumn we try to get South before the cold hits us in the North.
There’s no value for me to keep daily records like my friend did; it’s unlikely that we’ll be in the same place two years in a row. At one time I tried adding daily weather details to the blog and quickly realized that was a dumb idea. Too much work for no reward.
Planning pays off. Stay proactive and move before the trouble occurs whenever possible.
Obsessive planning doesn’t. Sometimes we make mistakes and pay the piper for not paying attention to the change of seasons. That’s what happened in the Spring of ’15 when we stayed in S. Texas longer than we should have. We hope to avoid the same this autumn — but now we’re dependent on a clear signal from the doctor.
We’re learning how to do this as we go; just like every other RV’ing couple.
Obsession is a strange human trait. About many things, obsession is not a good idea. About some things obsession is the only way to live. If you are an artist — obsession with your art might be your best friend. If you are an eater, obsession with food might be your worst enemy. Finding balance is the trick of all tricks.
This past two months my cardiologist has had me tracking my blood pressure and pulse. Let me clarify: he’s had me taking readings 10-14 times a day. Now think about that. 10 – 14 times a day. On one level that doesn’t sound like a hard thing. It only takes a minute — once you are sitting and resting. So, it’s not really the act of only a minute, it’s the act of a few minutes. And then there’s the part about remembering to do it about once an hour — because after sleep and eating, 14 or 15 hours are all that remain of the day.
What we’ve been doing — the doc and I — has been finding the right dosage of a medicine that slows my pulse, we’re messing with my heart rate. I have to tell you, that’s not something you do with out causing odd thoughts to pop up from time to time. Like: “what’s too low?” “Is this the way I should be feeling?” “Why do the numbers go up and down so much?” And many many more.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not a hypochondriac. I think I have a level head and I can be very analytical — which in itself can be a form of obsession. But I have been healthy all my life, none of us escapes this world without dying and at some point in time that’s going to happen to me too. Preferably later rather than sooner, but about some things we have little or no control. We do the best we can, maybe we even alter our lifestyle to live a little longer, but in the end we all have an expiration date.
All this blood pressure checking gets into your head though… Our bodies are these very involved chemical factories and they are very much like this earth in the sense that how we live on earth affects how our planet functions the same way how we live in our body affects how our body functions. Like gravity there’s not much we can do about some things; genetics and our past living have their effects, and they are beyond alteration. About some aspects of life we are quite helpless. Obsessing about them helps nothing.
One of the effects has been to make me less patient with people obsessing about everything that is wrong or bad, and whinging about them incessantly. That’s life. Get used to it.
I’ll never stop caring about the weather. I love the seasons, I love the changes. Oh, I suspect I’ll never stop disliking the cold. I’ll never stop caring about my health, that’s a prudent and wise thing to do. But neither is it good to obsess about it, nor to waste my life whinging about what’s wrong, or right, or happening.
I have always been a bit obsessive. I know that about myself. My dad always told me I had a One Track Mind. He was right. Great powers of concentration do that. It’s easy to block out the rest of the world and concentrate on getting done what you want to get done. Retirement has been hard in a good way because I haven’t had projects lined up to be accomplished one right after the other. And it’s taken me four years of retirement to adopt a little more of a laissez faire attitude. Some of the projects I have tied up during our stay in Milwaukee have been on my list for over a year — and they just sort of all fell into place while we were here — without straining or stress. It was bothering me that the list of projects was still there — unchanged, or if anything growing longer. But the fact of the matter is that it didn’t bother me all that much; it didn’t bother me enough to change the situation. And that is the key. I could look at them and not feel compelled to do anything. And I was comfortable with that.
For so many years I had to have a deadline. If there was no deadline I made a deadline so that I had one to work towards. Letting go has not been a battle — because I haven’t exactly been thinking about “I have to let this go.” I’ve been enjoying other things. The ones that haven’t gotten done simply had less importance. And to me, that’s the best way to learn. Let something thrill you, inspire you, excite you — and the ones that don’t just fall away. That’s healthy. That’s what I am enjoying about retirement. I don’t have to, I just do.
We’re still hoping maybe we’ll get out of town around the beginning of November. We aren’t sure. Seems that 2015 has been the year of waiting, over and over and over again — each time for a different reason. Maybe all that waiting has helped me let go of things; maybe it’s all just a lot of hot air. Hey, I’ve never been accused of saying too little. 🙂
Thanks for stopping by, and I’ll talk with you tomorrow.