It’s important to be able to talk about life. I write about what’s on my mind at the moment. It’s important to face the good, the bad, the ugly, and the torturous parts of life; doing so can be part of your strategy to deal with them instead of ignoring them.

Talking about life’s difficulties does not mean you are depressed or morbid. You can let yourself become such, but it’s not mandatory, and it’s a lot healthier of you don’t. I choose to speak about change and life as an encouragement to others to open their ears, eyes and mouths to engage with the world around them in a positive way.


When will vaccines bring back normal?


No beds anywhere

While this article is specifically about Minneapolis,our situation in Wisconsin is very similar.

Minnesota hospitals strained to limit by COVID-19

Open ICU beds were down to single digits in some parts of Minnesota last week, when Gov. Tim Walz ordered a four-week shutdown of bars and other venues.
By Jeremy Olson Star Tribune NOVEMBER 22, 2020 — 11:40AM

One walk through Regions Hospital’s COVID-19 intensive care unit reveals the scope of the medical crisis emerging from a fast-spreading pandemic.

Sixteen sliding glass doors are all closed, and behind each lies a patient struggling to breathe. Almost all are on ventilators because their lungs are too weak to work on their own. Clear tubes carry oxygen into their throats and chests, which mechanically rise and fall as their bodies lie still.

On this Thursday morning, 28 COVID-19 patients are in intensive care, with 12 spilling beyond the designated unit to areas designed for heart problems, strokes and surgical recoveries. A total of 97 COVID-19 patients have been admitted to Regions, which is almost full.

Minnesota’s experience with the pandemic suggests one-third of patients on ventilators won’t survive, even with optimal critical care.

“When we see so many people suffer and so many people who die, that is painful for us,” said Dr. Jerome Siy, head of hospital medicine for HealthPartners, which operates the St. Paul hospital.

The daily scene at Regions is playing out in ICUs across Minnesota as the coronavirus that causes COVID-19 sweeps across the state. Open ICU beds were down to single digits in some parts of Minnesota last week, when Gov. Tim Walz ordered a four-week shutdown of bars, restaurants and entertainment and fitness establishments in hopes of slowing the virus’ spread to alleviate pressure on hospitals.

From Mercy Hospital in Coon Rapids to Rice Memorial Hospital in Willmar to Regions, ICU beds are filling as quickly as they are opening up. Statewide, 79% of available ICU beds are filled, and 26% filled with COVID-19 patients.

The state’s capacity of open ICU beds has declined about one percentage point per day the past two weeks — raising the probability that some of the 408 ICU surge beds might need to be activated in unused hospital and nursing home wings.

“There’s no beds anywhere,” said Dr. Matthew Klee, whose ICU at Mercy is full and under pressure to take patients throughout Minnesota and western Wisconsin. “It’s become like a game of chess over the entire state.”

At one point this month, 30 people were in the Regions ER waiting for inpatient admission due to lack of beds.

Deferrals of noncritical surgeries and efforts to send stable COVID-19 patients home with monitoring have helped but “it’s still not enough,” said Dr. Kurt Isenberger, a HealthPartners ER physician and critical care researcher. “We are still seeing bed delays for patients in our emergency department.”

Toll on workers

More worrisome are the growing infections among health care workers who then can’t care for patients.

HealthPartners on Friday reported 308 workers absent due to COVID-19 infections and 414 who were quarantined due to viral exposures. Collectively, the Allina Health, CentraCare and Mayo Clinic systems reported more than 3,000 such absences last week.

Bethany Webb said it has been exhausting picking up shifts for ill colleagues. On a recent Thursday morning, the intensive care nurse is working in Regions’ COVID ICU. Paired with her is Susan Ehman, who responded to the pandemic crisis by returning to bedside nursing after five years in an administrative role.

“A lot of our patients are so sick, they need one-to-one nursing,” Webb said.

Stands with IV bags and monitoring panels would normally be at the bedside of Webb’s patients, but instead, they are tethered by long clear tubing from the patients outside to her station. That way, the nurse can adjust medication or oxygen-flow levels without entering the room, which would require donning gloves, gowns and a face shield to reduce the risk of getting infected by a patient.

An alarm sounds on one of the panels. One of Webb’s patients is moving around. Caregivers face constant tension between using the minimal amount of sedation necessary and keeping patients still so they don’t disrupt the breathing tubes in their throats and injure themselves.

“Try to stay real still, honey,” Webb told her patient.

This fall’s surge is different from the one hospitals endured in the spring. At its worst, the first wave produced a third of the patients that hospitals are now admitting, but the uncertainty and mystery surrounding COVID-19 at that time raised anxiety.

Hospitals didn’t have stable supplies of masks and personal protective equipment (PPE) and enacted conservation methods — such as bagging then reusing disposal N95 masks — that doctors and nurses feared might not work against a new and highly infectious coronavirus. And nobody knew what would improve recovery odds for severe COVID-19 cases.

Siy said PPE supplies are sufficient now, and while caregivers are still working with caution there is less fear of infection on the job.

The anxiety now comes from nine months of a pandemic that doctors and nurses can’t just leave at work, he said.

“We bring that home with us because we are living it at home, too,” Siy said. “Kids aren’t at school. Things are canceled.”

The risk to health care workers now is increasingly outside the hospitals and COVID-19 units, where caregivers know who has the virus and how to take precautions.

In the 30 days ending April 20, the Minnesota Department of Health reported 812 viral exposures involving hospital workers, and 95% involved contact with infected patients or co-workers without sufficient protective gear. In the 30 days ending Oct. 20, 53% of the 622 exposures were due instead to contact with infected people in their homes or at social engagements.

Still a mystery

The COVID-19 ICU at Regions is oddly quiet given the crowding of patients. No visitors are allowed except in extreme circumstances. The doors are closed to maintain negative air pressure, so viral particles coughed by patients don’t blow into the hallways and infect doctors and nurses.

Around the corner from Webb’s station are two nurses completing observational training to take on ICU shifts.

Jenny Borut had wanted to travel to New York in the spring to help address the COVID-induced hospital bed shortage there, but it felt unsafe to risk infection with her husband and children at home. Knowledge of the virus and how it spread made it a safer decision to return to critical care nursing locally this fall. “My heart and my passion has always been the ICU,” she said.

Behind each glass door of the COVID-19 ICU at Regions is a puzzle, because much is still unknown about optimal critical care for those infected.

Blood clots are increasingly recognized as a source of fatal or disabling complications, but overtreatment could lead to bleeding. The infection has been startling for its impact beyond the lungs and oxygenation of blood, and its effect in some cases on the brain, kidneys and other organs.

The glass doors on the unit are coated with marker drawings noting patients’ needs.

“* likes classical music,” one scribbling reads. “Jean Sibelius, Dmitri Shostakovich, Beethoven.”

On the unit’s far side is a door with a long list of dates and times — an incremental tracking of when the COVID-19 patient inside was rotated from his back to his stomach, and then back again.

The “proning” of COVID-19 patients is an example of the art matched with the science of treating the pandemic.

There is growing evidence that the practice helps COVID-19 patients in respiratory distress by distributing oxygen evenly to their damaged lungs, improving the oxygenation of blood and shortening or even preventing the amount of time that ventilation is needed.

What’s lacking is agreement on how often to rotate patients, or which ones to select for the physically demanding and resource-intensive procedure. It takes six to nine caregivers — in short supply — to safely turn over one patient.

Regions has taken the practice to the extreme, encouraging COVID-19 patients even in general beds to turn over to keep their lungs functioning.

There is no proof this helps patients who aren’t in critical care, said Chris Boese, Regions’ vice president for patient care. “They just feel better.”

A physician group continually evaluates studies and evidence about COVID-19 — with some treatments such as the antiviral remdesivir and donor convalescent plasma showing early promise and then some underwhelming follow-up study results. The standard practice is to throw all of the treatments at critically ill patients, making it hard to know which ones turn them around, Siy said.

“It’s not just how one of them works,” he said, “it’s how they all work together.”


Waiting for a family

Waiting for a family is the longest wait of all.

Despite the fact that we live in one of the most fortunate nations in the world, there are 515,000 children in foster care, with 155,000 children waiting to be adopted.

Over 20,000 children age out of foster care every year without a family to call their own.

For these children, every day that passes without a family of their own is an eternity. This is what compels Adopt America Network to prioritize finding permanent lifelong connections for these children. Many of the children that we work with have experienced complex trauma and/or have other factors that create barriers, and lead to them lingering and waiting in the system for far too long!

Perhaps the best way to really see what our organization is all about is to learn about the children who are available for adoption who so richly deserve an end to the waiting, and have a family to call their own.



A bit of satire

Satire or truth…. you tell me….

Laugh? We nearly all died – why my US failed state Twitter thread went viral

The final throes of the Trump presidency exposed America as the bad joke – and danger to the world – it has certainly become

Patrick GatharaSun 15 Nov 2020 03.00 EST

The chaotic US election has undoubtedly been the biggest story in the world in the last two weeks. Watching it unfold from over 13,000km away in Kenya, the election itself – the long queues, the delayed and disputed vote count, impugned credibility – was disturbingly familiar. Our own elections follow a near-identical pattern. The media coverage, not so much.

Gone were the condescending tone, the adjective-laden labels and the expectation of violence and malfeasance so often applied to “foreign” elections. In its place was an easy familiarity and assumption of competence.

The media did not feel it necessary to depict the US as a crisis-racked, oil-rich, nuclear-armed North American country with armed terror groups roaming its ethnically polarized restless interior. But these were exactly the sorts of descriptors that have traditionally allowed western audiences to identify with and follow events in distant, “exotic” places. It seemed to me that the rest of us deserved the same consideration. And so I decided to offer this perspective in a Twitter thread.

Clearly, many across the globe felt similarly, given the response the thread has attracted. At last count, it had been viewed nearly 4m times, attracting more than 50,000 likes and nearly half as many retweets. And there was more than mere interest in the mechanics of what was happening in the US. There was a fair bit of joy at its expense.

In 2016, the Republican candidate for president, Donald Trump, may have exaggerated somewhat when he declared: “The world is laughing at us. They’re laughing at us, at our stupidity.” No longer. As counting in the crisis-racked North American state entered its 10th day, around the world it had become the butt of many jokes. After decades of enduring its hubris and condescension, many are happy to see the self-anointed “shining city on a hill” and self-proclaimed “greatest country in the history of the world” knocked down a peg or two.

In truth, it has been a long time coming. For a long time, America has been to the world what Trump has been to America – a bull in a china shop. Rich, entitled, brash, overconfident and often downright stupid, since the end of the cold war the country has traipsed around the world, breaking stuff as it went, throwing its weight around, and playing fast and loose with cherished global norms. Its journalists and moviemakers (and president) rarely missed the opportunity to stress just what an uncivilized “shithole” the rest of the globe was and how much we needed the enlightenment offered by the Peace Corps.

America always seemed surprised that other people did not necessarily appreciate being insulted or told how to live. Like Trump, it has had its enablers. Some, like the British, were true believers in its “manifest destiny” to rule and deliver the world. Others, like the French, were content to give their support while holding their noses.

Like Trump, America’s successes were primarily economic and its monumental failures, in places like Vietnam and Iraq, cost hundreds and thousands of lives. It had a complicated relationship with the truth as exemplified by Colin Powell’s speech to the United Nations, laying out the Bush administration’s rationale for war in Iraq. Like Trump it cozied up to dictators in Africa and gave a wink and a nudge to the apartheid regimes in South Africa and in the Palestinian territories occupied by Israel.

Inevitably perhaps, America’s excesses inspired a rival. Today, America finds itself as a bull in China’s shop. It has slowly been eclipsed in many areas where it was once dominant, especially in trade and lately in technology. And America has reacted much like Trump to the loss of its position as top dog – it is throwing a tantrum. From inciting a trade war to trying to wreck global alliances and treaties, to undermining the multilateral system, the US is showing that it will not go quietly into the sunset.

Given all this, many around the world can be excused for feeling a little schadenfreude as the US is humiliated by an election that has ruthlessly exposed its inadequacies, and a president that has made a mockery of its claim to be the king of democracies.

The election and four years of Trump have shown that far from being a paragon of democracy, the US has not only neglected its decaying democratic institutions at home, but has also incubated a dangerous authoritarianism. As the US fixes itself, the rest of us too need to reform the international system which for too long has operated on the mistaken belief that the US is what it claimed to be. The Trump presidency should be the wake-up call we all need to build a better world.

  • Patrick Gathara is a Kenyan political cartoonist, satirist and writer. Twitter: @gathara


Ok, I admit it. I’m terribly discouraged by the events since the election.

For one thing gloating never flatters anyone and while I understand and even share in the elation that dRumpf lost the election by the same token we do no one any kindness by gloating.

For another, just as has been the case for four years now the decree to which dRumpf revels in being a scofflaw makes me beyond angry. And that people sit around twiddling their thumbs just saying, “well that’s who he is” and no one is willing to stand up to him and call him out for his behavior, or pursue the legal means of controlling him — it’s absolutely an abandonment of the government that once-had-been the United States of America.

That politicians and media sit in front of their cameras for clever soundbites decrying his steps toward a coup and no one takes his madness seriously says a lot about how important raw “power” is for people in the United States of America.

I could sit here for hours writing about the abandonment of the American Dream but the fact is few care. All the populace seem to want is an easy, untroubled, way of life that isn’t bothered by real problems. We want our sports and our entertainment, we love revealing in violence but we have forgotten what it means to actually suffer as a nation — until COVID — and dRumpf certainly has abdicated any interest in helping the suffering citizens he was once elected to serve.

It’s embarrassing. It’s frustrating. It is, AMERICA in 2020.